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wrote on April 7, 2013
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12:07 pm
It took 47.5 years to find truth. Along that journey was many near death experiences involving alcohol and drugs to mask the enormous pain of childhood trauma. Being labeled as having a \"chemical unbalance of the brain, ya right 🙂 \" I painstakingly continued to fit into the norm from 1989. Yes, as a Canadian, I was sent to Macon, Georiga ( Colisium Hosp.) for treatment for addictions, and eventually stayed another month for \"Family Issues\" I cried many rivers and broke a few chairs 🙂 during that treatment. But I left with the impression that I dealt with my childhood and if I remained a committed AA member , I would be on my way to a good life, eventhough I had to take some pills for my \"chemical unbalance brain , ya right 🙂 \".....Instead of walkin around with Vodka on my forehead, it was replaced with \"Bipolar\"......Long story short, I continued to struggl, relapse,hospital stays,loosing careers, long term sobiority, crawl through the house snibbling, etc, etc etc.....meanwhile not knowing that my issues were still unresolved. Was alone 11 days during 2012 Christmas wanting to jump the 17 storey balcony because of 20 years of brutal aniexity, I came across Danny boy :).......just to let u know, I am a Daniel also, but am called by my middle name Barton, Bart...but it was his sharing and ideals that help bring me to all truth within, 9 DAYS i went on a deep dark journey that I could not stop......it came , it came in a profound way that I thought I was gonna physically die, I broke out in big boils on my head and body that puss was flowing out, ewwwwww, but true....yes, i was crawling, fetal postion, pacing, for 9 days, slept when i could, ate when i could, and kept on youtube with Daniel for reassurance( fukkin neighbours must of thought Bart has really lost it, hehehe 🙂 )anywayssss, I made it, and found out it was my own mistakes I made along the way since 89 also(I have 3 beautiful daughters not with me and they know all about Childhood Trauma and the Healing Process) Through Macklers selflessness and own sharing of his life and ideals, gave me VALIDATION that I am not fukked up, I just had to work on some unresolved issues.......excuse me, it just poured out lol......have a good one ppl Bart 🙂