I am not sure why I am writing here. I guess it\'s an effort to calm and quiet my mind an soul. I have been in therapy for awhile now. A journey I never intended to start really and had no idea where it would go. To be a grown woman, a wife, and a mother and face my demons of abuse, neglect, self destruction, and realize for the first time how cleanly I seperated myself from those events. I find I am at a place now where the rose colored glasses I have used for hindsight are cracked and no longer provide such a positive view and yet I remember that View so clearly. I am an intellectual being and I find myself searching for answers. Answers to questions I really don\'t want to ask. I stumbled into this site and for what it worth. I found a momentary solace in the fact that someone somewhere has devoted their life to helping us out of the shadows.