[Written in 2004.]
People procreate in an attempt to have their children rescue them from their own unresolved pain. They may couch their desire to procreate in concepts like biological drive, societal and familial expectation, and love for mothering, and these may all be partially true, but underneath these surface motives people who have not resolved all of their childhood traumas have children because they really just want to be loved. And this is not fair to the child, because no child asks to be born, and no child has the capacity to rescue his parents. Only deep healing – through the resolution of one’s own childhood traumas – can rescue people from their own buried horrors.
The journey to healing, however, is so painful and so laden with horror and sorrow that few dare even take the first step. To make matters worse, people emboldened to heal must face the limits and cruelties of their own parents, and parents never support children, even grown children, who go this route. Instead they reject them, hate them, and want them to become unconscious drones once again.
Thus many avoid the whole healing process and instead have children as a compromise. They block their rage at their parents for failing them and transform it into hope for rescue from their offspring – all the while acting out this rage in subtle and sometimes not so subtle ways on their very offspring. This is why parents so deeply love it when their own children have children. The instant they become grandparents they become immune from blame, because their children are now equally as culpable. The guilty have no emotional leg to stand on when it comes to blaming others for the same crimes, and unconsciously parents know this.
Also, when people become parents it becomes far harder for them to feel their legitimate rage at their own traumatizing parents, because simple logic tells them that what comes around sooner or later goes around. You can’t confront your parents without giving your children a green light to be able someday to confront you for the very same things, even if you dress up your replicated perpetrations in different garb. Thus so many unconscious people put all their hopes into raising children who themselves will someday become parents and carry on the tradition of deception. This largely explains why parents often become disturbed when their own children turn out to be gay. Gay children have a great opportunity to break out of the system and break some of the intergenerational cycles of trauma – even if so few gay people actually put their potential to this great use.
But none of this is the fault of the child. The child is born pure, and has a full right to be loved and to have nothing expected of him in return. He owes his parents nothing for having created him and raised him, though as he unconsciously absorbs his parents’ deeper purposes for his creation he quickly loses his naïveté about his inherent rights. He may not be born knowing how to love, but if he’s to survive in the world he learns quickly.